HI

Dear YOU,

Hi, this is Ian. Nothing but to say hi. I'm here alone sitting at the Hong Kong International Airport in the business class lounge. I suppose to be on the plane to Chicago at this moment. Yet due to the exceed number of passenger, I volunteered to take the next flight since I'm not in a rush; while 400USD were given to me as compensation plus other benefits like having the access to all facilities in the business class lounge etc while waiting for the next flight. My final destination is actually Hartford in Massachusetts. Remember I told you I want to attend the work and travel program? Ya, it is happening right now.

It was 35hours of flight including transits but now it's added up to 48hours. Wow. I don't really care as long as I arrive Hartford before 5pm on Monday, US time. While receiving 400USD as an extra... Haha. I'd never expect such scenario would take place in the first flying journey in my life!

I feel like winning a lottery when they announced that 400USD will be given as compensation. I just need more time to come to accept the fact.

I've graduated in early February. I was jobless for the past few months just waiting for today. I backed home in January as the contract ended in December. My temper turns so badly especially my mom wanted to talk to me. I wish I could walk out of her further and further away. I felt so extremely good when I left her in the airport and continue the journey by myself. Just myself. The last question that I reserved for myself is, if she passed away, will my tears fall? Put it aside for a second. Well, while my girlfriend decided to break up few weeks ago which was not anything new. Though I didn't bring it up, it doesn't mean that she won't.

Sitting in the higher class lounge, I can view the planes flying into the sky very clearly. Vividly. I feel so excited whenever there's a plane depart. Simply excited. Life is always full of joy. I may never have second chance to take bath in the airport while tower, shampoo and everything is provided free to me. Haha. It was so out of my mind.

Regards,

Ian

小男孩搭飞机记

我觉得好平静。

这才是我要走的路。

第一次察觉到，自己的路真好走。

好开心。

9:10pm

15 May 2010

KLIA, waiting for the flight at 9:45pm in the lounge.

对面坐了两个日本人，说着我不明白的异乡话。而其他乘客不是埋头干着自己的东西，就是在四处张望。可是这一切对我而言，却是那么地熟悉，好似我就在这陌生的环境中长大。不曾相识却又这么地贴近，这种感觉倒令我觉得有点诡异。第一次这么近距离地观望着窗外宏伟的飞机，觉得好兴奋。这该会是我生命中最难忘的其中一幕了。嗯。。。

八点钟的早课

天色开始微亮了。

躺在车里。坐垫被调下了。拿了个抱枕当枕头。

七点钟。早晨。在大学的露天停车场。

用棉衣盖着头睡觉。总觉得有人在外观望。

搞得我睡得一点也不安宁。

拉下毛衣。突出了被蚊子咬伤的头部。

还是没有离开毛衣的温暖。虽然有种自欺欺人的安全感。

你会否过来坐在我的身旁，用你那温柔的手轻抚我的头部？

如果有那么一天，当你上学时经过我正在里面睡觉的车子。

如果有那么一天，当你上学时发现有个人在车子里睡觉。

如果有那么一天，当你上学时发现正在睡觉的那个人是我。

如果有那么一天。就如果。

为什么会有白色的鸽子飞过，在这样的时刻？

它会为我捎来你的消息吗?

该走了。我会想你。和谢谢你的付出。我爱你。

安全地带

落寞的游子

不羁的性格

疲累不堪的身躯

不分昼夜地赶路

带着牵肠挂肚地叮咛

踏足素不相识的他乡

痛彻心扉地割舍

誓要逃脱那温室小花的命运

割断了缠绵千年的情丝

释放了旧日相恋的爱人

期待中傲阳高照的明天

满腔地热诚在絮絮绽放

休止符

向昨日的三年九个月与十八日，画上一个句点。

再见了。

祝你安好。

Untitled 4

站在人群中。茫然地看着四周快速移动的人们。

在十字路口中央。不知该往哪个方向前进。

不对。我并没有看到任何路口，我只见到拥挤的人头从四面八方向我涌过来，带着疲累不堪的身躯与或多或少的愤怒，使我吓了一大跳。然而却没人停下脚步来对付我或与我交谈，全都擦身而过。

黑的、白的、黄的、金的、银的，五颜六色，真是七彩缤纷、目不暇给。我吸了一大口气，开始放松了，在茫茫人海中。天气时而晴、时而阴。无论是烈日中天抑是倾盆大雨或雷雨交加，城市里的步伐几乎没被缓慢过。不被误延的城市时间，掺杂着参始不齐地喜、怒、哀、乐。但能被肉眼接触到的却只是一张张目无表情的面孔。

我试着不被打扰，开始寻找方向。

茫然一片。视野完完全全地被仓促的表情给淹没了。

我开始惶张。

一位路人匆匆走过，不小心撞到我的左肩。

我的身体倾向了一旁。

说时迟、那时快。忽然又被后面停不及脚步的家伙撞上了另一肩。

我的视野忽然变成了另一幅画面。

一而再、再而三地，陆陆续续又有好几个失魂鬼再撞上来。

我已经完全的失去了方向感。

围绕着我的，依然是密密麻麻的人头，和素不相识的脸孔，还有永远都被嫌太慢的脚步。

独自站在人群中，突然好想念你。

真的。